Dear Agony (Karmzy)

J. J. heard it and fled. She wasn't even really sure what she head - like she ever was?

It could have been footsteps, or a shadow, hell it could have been her own breathing the set her off - though she had been getting better, she had, she had, she had.

And that just made it all the worse.

Something was there - it-they- coming for her- she had to get away - to hide -to-to-to...

Grabbing the first door she saw she flew it open and ran inside... only to stop and see that the classroom was a dead end, a trap a-a-a-

Stumbling about nervously, she found a table and burried herself underneath it. Maybe if she could just- just stay silent and, and, she'd be fine if she just stayed still, and didn't-didn't-

Pulling her knees up to her chest, biting her lip to muffle any sounds she may make, she let her hair fall over her face, and J. J. Jones hid.

From what? She did not know, but if she could just stay where she was maybe, maybe it would be okay?

Karma had been wondering through the hallways, her mind halfway between picturing Arsen 'hot and fired up' and plotting on pranking Gryffindors when she spotted her first Firstie, Double J duck into a classroom. She was curious, so she walked into the classroom.

She hadn't seen her firstie in a while, she'd been busy, and kidnapped, but all those thoughts disappeared the second she saw JJ.

"Firstie? Are you alright...?"

J. J. flailed back from the footsteps, the voice the person, and of course, being under a table managed to smash her head right against it. Her eyes watered with pain, as her heartrated slowed some what, and she managed to process what was in front of her.

It was Karma. Just Karma. She managed to calm down some.

Just Peachy she thought rather bitterly, as she unconsiously nodded her head slightly, giving the girl a thumbs up with one hand, and rubbing the new rather brused part of her head with the other.

Karma crouched down to eye level, scrutinizing the girl. She looked... different. Darker, somehow.

"Well? What are you doing under a table?" She asked, riffling through her robe until she pulled out a chocolate frog and held it out to her. "Here. Eat this. You look terrible." She teased.

J. J. looked around at the table. She really was being ridiculous, but she just couldn't... couldn't...

Slowly, taking a deep breath, she slide across the floor until she was out from under the table.

She looked around her before taking the frog, and nibbling on it slightly, giving a shrug in response to the table question. It wasn't like she could really elaborate beyond that at the moment.

Karma narrowed her eyes at her and sat on the ground in front of her. "What... what's going on here, Double J? Why aren't you talking?" She pulled out her own chocolate frog and bit its head off. She pulled the Chocolate Frog Card. "Look! It's Helga Hufflepuff!" She said, holding it up. "That's got to be a good sign, right?"

J. J. quietly finished her frog, smiling at Karma's card and nodding her head slightly. Once she was sure she was at some level of calm - the chocolate had really helped, she would have to remember that for next time - she looked around the room for a long moment looking for an idea.

She held up her finger when she saw one. Slowly she pulled herself to her feet and went over to the chalkboard, stealing a peice of chalk before sitting back across from Karma.

Then very slowly and carefully she wrote on the floor.

Sorry. Because I can't.

Karma frowned. "What happened?" She asked, looking down at the chalk. "Why not?" she frowned. "Did... Did someone do something to you...?"

J. J. shrugged and nervously played with the chalk in her hands. She was a little better at thinking about it now, but it was still very painful. Her mind shied away from any thoughts.

No, she wrote after a moment. No one did anything to my voice. It was just... gone.

She hesitated for a moment before adding.

I was attacked though... over the break.

Karma growled. "Someone attacked you?" She demanded. "Who? Where? When?" She stood and started pacing, running her hand through her hair. She growled. "What happened? Write it all down."

Something occurred to her and she was back in front of JJ in a milisecond. "Did they hurt you?!"

J. J. jumped back a bit as Karma growled. The chalk shook in her hand. She should have anticipated a reaction but still...

I don't really remember well she wrote slowly. It wasn't really a lie... she knew she could remember if she wanted to, it was always poking back there but...

She couldn't let herself remember.

It was break, I was at this, she paused trying to keep herself calm, club... they were just girls. Just girls.

She bit her lip at Karma's last question, her hands unconsiously rubbing her skin.

Not Really was what she finally wrote. Again, not completely a lie - they hadn't hurt her as much as they hurt Cecile.

Karma narrowed her eyes at the writing. "What did they look like?" She asked through gritted teeth, trying to tone down her reaction. She kneeled before JJ, offering another chocolate frog and finished eating the rest of hers. "Does Professor Lewis know?" She asked.

J. J. took the frog and fiddled with the packaging for a moment before answering. She started with the easier question first.

She nodded her head.

Miss Mad came to St. Mungos.

Finally she opened the packaged, grabbing the frog and nibbled on it slowly while she approached her memory hesitately. She shrugged as she ate the last of the frog.

They were, girls - dark hair? she bit her lip as she though. They were older than me but, not too much - They don't go here.

Karma narrowed her eyes. "What did their accents sound like?" She imitated a Russian accent. "Lik dis?" She switched to french. "Or l'ke th's?"

J. J. bit her lip as she heard their voices in her head again. She shook unconsiously began shiver. Wrapping her hands in the the ends of her sleaves she settled them on her lap.

Closing her eyes she shoved the thoughts away - she didn't need to dwell on them ot answer the question.

The first one.

Karma growled. "Durmstrang." She said. "I'm going to find them." She said with conviction. "And when I do..." She clenched her hands into fists. "You won't ever have to be afraid of them again." She promised.

J. J. jumped again. This time more out of...

She jumped forward for a moment, she openned her mouth, but she wasn't going to be able to get anything out of her mouth..

Karma sounded like...

She didn't like thinking about the girls around, but... Karma was going to get in trouble if she let her...

Karma looked at the girl, trying to read her. "It's alright." She said, trying to calm her voice down. She wrapped her arms around the girl. "I'll protect you, Firstie." She took her hand and before she can think better of it, kissed it and sucked, leaving a hickey. "I swear it."

J. J. leaned into the hug slightly, and wouldn't have bothered - even if she could - to have pointed out that she wasn't a firstie anymore. She liked the sound of firstie, it reminded her of when things were simplier.


The girl furrowed her brow slightly, running a finger over the mark Karma had made. She didn't understand it, but she smiled and nodded anyways.

She didn't have her chalk anymore, but she decided just to mouth the words.

Thank you.

Karma smiled. "You're welcome, Firstie." She said with a smile. "Don't worry about anything any more. Tell Dimi I said that he needs to stick close to you. He probably already knows it... but I need you to tell him for me." She didn't say why, and she didn't say why she couldn't tell him herself, she just hugged JJ again.

She looked over her shoulder as she walked out of the room. "Don't hide under tables. It does nothing, you know? Next time, hide in the Room of Requirement. It's safer."

With that, she disappeared.